hey, I'm alive! was not kidnapped in Europe and didn't "accidentally" miss my flight home, all good news. but I have obviously been absent from my blog for a VERY long time.
3 reasons why:
1. I am a procrastinator- I always say I'm gonna do something and I either put it off, or do half of it and say, "I'll do it later." but I eventually do it!
2. going off of procrastinating, I'm sometimes a POS and just am too lazy to do things, no matter how passionate I am about it.
3. most importantly, I have been so busy!! yeah, my classes in italy weren't too hard, but I became so exhausted traveling so much and trying to fit in all my lasts (tough I know, right?) that I started to prioritize, and my blog got the short stick.
but here I am now, sitting in a little cafe, thinking about the things I have done and all my dreams that have come true (so cheesy but whatever) and finally updating my blog! and boy I've got something on my mind about life I wanna share.
they always say, "dream big" and all that bullshit, but when our dreams come true we're so quick to jump to our next big dream that we forget we're living in it right then. I've been thinking about this concept a lot, especially my last month in europe. i told myself to stop thinking about the future and to live in the exact moment that I was in, and by doing that it really allowed me to appreciate where I was. of course, it is hard to not think of new dreams and ideas for the future because it’s exciting, but you can't let that overpower your present mind set. I think by doing this it really can change your perspective on life and have a better attitude. another thing that’s helped me have a positive attitude is looking back on all I've accomplished. I could be upset that there was a lot I didn't do while studying abroad, but instead I think of all the amazing things I did do instead. I was living under the tuscan sun!! (side note under the tuscan sun is my all time fav movie) but seriously how can I be sad about missing out when I was busy doing so much.
we destroy our dreams when we look at the ones we didn't accomplish and I think that's so sad and not a good way of living. two years ago, I said I wanted to live in new york city and intern for LoveShackFancy but never thought it was possible. but look where I am!! in freakin NYC and interning for a company I love. I am so happy I could honestly cry because I took that dream and made it reality because I wanted it so bad.
moral of this post, the life you're living right now is too cool to constantly live in the future.
hope everyone has a lovely week -E